Last post of 2005

The process to stop smoking has begun. Monday is my last day as a smoker. Wish me well.

My New Years Resolution is simple: Finish a manuscript. Have it edited, and get it published.

Continue to think, create, and tell the world...my lifes mission I think.

EJ Wasson
12.30.2005

2005 EJ Wasson Year in Review

Well, its that time of the year to recap the events, successes and failures of 2005. As some of you know...2004 was a disastrous year for me. Most, if not all of it caused by the controversy of anD thE world sAid noTHing. Well, I have moved past that and it is still selling copies, it is now in hardback, and I am STILL working on my next creation for all of you.

This year Nine Inch Nails, released their latest album, and I saw them in concert.
The Browns are horrid, but Charlie Frye may be the future.
The Bengals have made my daily life, hell.
My daughter turned 3, and my son 6.
I completed my 32nd trip around the sun.
I have learned that friendship is indeed important as part of my ongoing development as a person. Constant growth is big for me.
I am still smoking. But the 2006 year in review, will hopefully show that changed.
I have learned the art of self-control when it comes to alcohol.
I have learned that the Republicans, and the Religious Right, I once embraced...represent none of my beliefs.
I have learned to stand up for my beliefs in certain areas..and when appropriate.
I have learned that I agree with a philosophy that most do not understand.
I cried when Hurricane Katrina crushed New Orleans. I cried more when the convention center became an imprisonment for the thousands who followed the orders to get there.
I blame our President for the poor follow up there.
I blame the President for 2000 plus deaths in Iraq.
Howard Stern has left conventional radio.
So have I, I am now a SIRIUS subscriber. Today, I removed my cars antannae.
I have talked with many people who have enjoyed my novel...and I appreciate all of the feedback.
I lost a grandmother to smoking.
I learned my uncle has blood cancer.
I learned that past feelings are hard to see passed. But also, that you must see passedt it, or you will never GET passed it.
I learned that...I genuinely like who I am. This is a new one for me. It is a big one. I hope you can say the same thing about yourself. If not..work on it.
I have positively impacted several people I work with, and helped them be more productive.
I took my son to his first NFL game. It was a Bengals game. They won.
I sprinkled Reindeer food outside our apartment to make sure that Santa would stop by for my children.
I have learned to appreciate the things I do not like in order to appreciate other peoples interests more.
I have grown less self important.
I have grown to become who I always thought I wanted to be.
I am strong. I take on a lot of burdens, and stress...and none of it is for me.
And even with my philosophical beliefs, its ok. Because it makes me happy.
I have grown to become who I always thought I wanted to be.

I have grown to become who I always thought I wanted to be.



I have grown.

Happy New Year.
EJ Wasson
12/28/2005

SIRIUSLY SPEAKING

Ok, I am a SIRIUS subscriber. I dont hesitate when I know what I want.

I heard the words fuck, blow job, and happy ending. Free at last, Free at last, thank God almight free speech at last.

ALSO!!!!

Is this interesting to anyone but me: Steve Forbes....ran for President...

http://www.forbesbookclub.com/bookpage.asp?prod_cd=IVQ1U

I think this is comical...

#80

I have done this 80 times now... Thats a lot you know.

I could be a real whore...and put a few hundred of these together someday as a book. Who knows...depends on the climate at the time. I am still 220 days from there..so we'll see when we get there.

Its entertaining to me..but I dont know if it would be to you. In fact, email me and let me know of that idea. I like this to be a participation sport.

I will be out of town and away from this forum for about a week...so with that.

Happy Holidays..regardless of the ones you celebrate. I will write again before the New Year.

2006? Unreal. Remember Y2K...the shirts that said 01/01/01...all that stuff is on ebay i am sure..but its a faded memory right now.

Til then.

EJ Wasson

You gotta be kidding me....

Bush has approved secretive eavesdropping in U.S. dozens of times, official says

From Associated PressDecember 16, 2005 9:16 PM EST

WASHINGTON - President George W. Bush has personally authorized a secretive eavesdropping program in the United States more than three dozen times since October 2001, a senior intelligence official said.



WAKE UP EVERYONE. THIS SHIT IS REALLY HAPPENING.

I voted for John Kerry...I voted for John Kerry..I voted for John Kerry

Howard Stern

Today was Howards last day on terrestrial radio. He moves to SIRIUS in January. Howard I have a lot of laughs and memories from your show...thanks. I will be following over to satellite.

The only thing that sucks is the FCC won. A little of our first amendment has been stolen away.

Our freedoms are slipping away..but too many people dont notice.

It scares me to death.

I should have the right to say FUCK...and you should have the right not to read it...


let's leave it that way

furthering the fury...

Tonight I attended, the "Worlds largest office party", downtown Cincinnati. The annual event raises money for cancer, and this was my first year going. I will support cancer on my own from now on. It was a room filled with what I hate.

Commercialism
Self-absorbtion
The Beautiful People
Cincinnati Bengal football players
Fakes
and frauds

It was a holiday party of sorts with live music, lots of alcohol, beautiful women, and pretty boys galore.

In the corner...the guy no one would talk too? The guy no one knew existed? Yep...that was me.

Now, I wasn't alone...not in the sense of being with people I actually knew..but I am always at my loneliest when there are a lot of people around.

The wall re-built...and for the hours I was there...I lost interest in myself. It is hard...very hard, to go through this life and not fit in anywhere. My belief system, my music, my movies, my football team...virtually everything that interests me...is what seperates me from those I talk about tonight. I used to feel sorry for myself...wonder why I am me...wonder what I did to be so fucking different from everyone else.

After tonight...after I left the party...I feel sorry for them.

After the party, after the drinks, after the one night stands, and the hangovers...they will wake up tomorrow and have no more clearer a picture of who they are.

I am me always and consistently...and that is my lesson.

Life is too short to go through it as someone you are not. So relish yourself. Be quirky, be funny, be evil, be good, be what YOU are. That is the essence of life.

You get one chance.

EJ Wasson 12/15/2005

anD thE world sAid noThing

Well...i have been asked for one for a while now. And it has taken me a while to get it together for you...but, alas..I have done it.

I have a limited edition of anD thE world sAid noTHing available in hardcover. For your enjoyment I have resorted back to my original cover. The folks at the online bookstores are picky..or I was...whatever..but we didnt get the "eyes" cover to go to the bookstores. In the end I am happy with the blood, flower, knife...but the eyes...wow.

Also, the book is bound in a nice dark blue cover and engraved in gold. A much more long lasting version is now available..and you asked for it...so go nuts.

www.lulu.com/ejwasson click on the cover with the eyes... its also a bit more expensive than I would like it to be which is why it is a limited edition only. I will stop selling them when I have sold the number I want too. And I wont tell you..one day, it will be gone. Act now.

You know I hate sales pitches about my book...but this one is cool...and has sold more today that I would have ever imagined. Thank you.

EJ Wasson

Double Post...

I have spoken to you for nearly 7 months now using this forum. We have come a long way..from the book first being published, to its journey in being picked up by the online bookstores. To deaths, cancers, wars, several rants on different subjects, and my daily life.

However: I haven't let you in. I learned today..from someone much wiser than me...that letting people in isn't a bad thing. So tonight...for the first time I think. You will read what I have to say. Nothing cryptic, nothing pretentious, nothing but the truth. This will probably be the last post where you get the real me for a while...so enjoy while you can. :)

I am at a point in my life where I am completely frustrated. I am not where I want to be. My family is wonderful..but not what I want us to be. I have people around me 24 hours a day..and the wall is building again. I am drawing away from those around me. Shutting down. I learned today that my son was involved in three seperate incidents at school. Three different people...three different incidents. All of them unacceptable. I spoke with his sobbing mother about what to do, and I just didnt know what to tell her. I spoke with my son. I told him I was disappointed. But, when he isn't around me all the time I question the validity I have in his life right now. I question the authority I have over his directions. When I do spend time with him, I show him how to live. How to love. How to be as responsible as I expect a 6 year old boy to be. He is falling short. I am at a loss. Worse? I have no direct contact with him. If you know me at all, and interestingly enough..most of you do by now. I am not with his mother...that phase of my life ended 6 years ago. When my son was 6 months old, his mother and I decided that it would never work. I figured for his sake..knowing it wasnt going to work..we should end things then. My son only knows one way..his mother and I love him..but not each other. I agree it must be a hard concept to follow. Parenting..is the most fucking frustrating thing I have ever done. It would be so easy to throw up my arms, walk away, and say good luck. My father once told me he had that feeling with me as I grew up. I kind of wish he wouldnt have told me that. I will never tell my son that I have those feelings occassionally. Now on the bright side, there are actually people who do walk away. And they are chicken shit. I hate them. I cannot be one of them. This isnt a cry for advice, just a cleansing of my frustration. I do feel better now than when I started...so I guess it worked.

I love you son. I will never give up on you. You will appreciate that about me someday.

Now back to our regularly scheduled programming of cryptic one paragraph posts that are almost always completely self absorbed. I could go on...but I am tired...and I am empty..and I am tired...and I am empty

A sincere thank you...

Tonight, I would like to thank all of you who have sent me an email wishing my uncle well. I truly am touched that although you have never met me..you thought enough to send a quick little note. It means a lot to me. This is obviously a tough time...and it has made it easier with your encouragement and well wishes. For that I thank you.

I have more to say..but due to its contents..and this ones...They should be seperate.

Violated

Damnit.

I try with much force to keep people away from me.
to not let them in.

once in a while they slip by.

Welcome.

3 hours 45 minutes

My commute home last night from my Real Job. Cincinnati. Winter. Ohio Drivers.

Someone help us.

I have no time to tell you everything i have to say...figures.

Be glad though, it wouldnt be a positive shiny happy people post anyway...

but if thats what you want..you know better than coming here right????

Its Friday. Live like it.

I intend on doing so..More to come maybe tonight maybe this weekend..but I have a lot to say...

be patient.

P

Thanks for visiting....

A word of advice on the novel:

Don't believe everything you read.

It is fiction after all....

thanks for stopping by...hope you're well.

Finally some good news...

Nine Inch Nails

Cincinnati

2/25/2006

Fuck yes.