its been a few days so here i go
Its monday, the sun is rising to the east and commuters are rushing from their cars to make this bus. It is the last that runs to the city after all, so its either this one or drive to the city...using gas, frustrated with other drivers, and finding a spot to park in. Not us, we ride and jump off at the closest stop to our places of employment. My stop is quite close, block and a half I suppose. Well worth it I think. Bus filled and moving.
The weekend was good, but short. Aren't they all?
Golfed on friday and saturday. The first time I have golfed on two days back to back in 16 years. I played well enough to want to do it again. Soon.
Had a very graphic dream about a suicide. Mine. I was in a third or fourth story apartment. I had ordered a kit designed to kill you as you jumped out of the window. It was a very sporty looking noose type thing. It was blue and black with an intenst velcro closure. The string was a thin high test nylon, that had a caribiner that attached the string to this hook. The hook was a lobster claw hook and was drilled into the wall with an anchor to keep it in when the weight of the body pulled the string tight...deadly tight. I had a few friends over whom I didn't know in real life but these friends were watching me install the apparatus. I checked the window, looked down to see how short I needed to make the rope. You don't want to go to long you know. The friends seemed excited to be there. Once the apparatus was installed, I velcroed the noose around my neck. I then asked my friends to leave. They said they were going to park a bit up the street to watch. When there car had pulled away, I hooked the noose to the end of the nylon rope. I walked over to look down again at the ground, and closed my eyes. In my minds eye, I ran and jumped through the window, saw myself fall violently, and when the string ran out, my body jerked very violently. I opened my eyes. I walked back to the line I had painted on the floor. The go line. I looked ahead at the window, I reached up and removed the noose from my neck.
Ej wasson
The weekend was good, but short. Aren't they all?
Golfed on friday and saturday. The first time I have golfed on two days back to back in 16 years. I played well enough to want to do it again. Soon.
Had a very graphic dream about a suicide. Mine. I was in a third or fourth story apartment. I had ordered a kit designed to kill you as you jumped out of the window. It was a very sporty looking noose type thing. It was blue and black with an intenst velcro closure. The string was a thin high test nylon, that had a caribiner that attached the string to this hook. The hook was a lobster claw hook and was drilled into the wall with an anchor to keep it in when the weight of the body pulled the string tight...deadly tight. I had a few friends over whom I didn't know in real life but these friends were watching me install the apparatus. I checked the window, looked down to see how short I needed to make the rope. You don't want to go to long you know. The friends seemed excited to be there. Once the apparatus was installed, I velcroed the noose around my neck. I then asked my friends to leave. They said they were going to park a bit up the street to watch. When there car had pulled away, I hooked the noose to the end of the nylon rope. I walked over to look down again at the ground, and closed my eyes. In my minds eye, I ran and jumped through the window, saw myself fall violently, and when the string ran out, my body jerked very violently. I opened my eyes. I walked back to the line I had painted on the floor. The go line. I looked ahead at the window, I reached up and removed the noose from my neck.
Ej wasson
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